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  • Who I am is more important than judgement from my appearance

    Maturing swiftly, seemingly unaware of the years passing by, I find myself blessed with yet another year. In my younger years, I held the belief that by my current age, I would have achieved complete independence. However, I now realize this was mere wishful thinking, as my plans were formulated without actively involving God in my prayers and aspirations. I was confident that I could contend with time and attain full independence, allowing my parents to enjoy their lives without concerns.

    Reality has struck hard; instead of bringing stress relief, I find myself weighed down by more worries. My plans and dreams have been inconsistent, often wavering from one idea to another. The pressure from my family adds to the uncertainty, making it challenging to hold onto a clear path. I am currently in pursuit of a job that offers better compensation, working tirelessly with the ultimate goal of reducing the pressure.

    My primary objective is to work diligently, earning more, with the bottom line being a desire for respect from my colleagues. I yearn for them to acknowledge and appreciate me for who I am, rather than forming judgments based on appearances.

  • What is it takes to be a daughther of a middle class family?

    Navigating life as a daughter of a middle-class family in the Far East, where stable incomes are elusive, and with four siblings, each eager to broaden their horizons and make a meaningful impact, has proven to be a far more challenging journey than I could have anticipated. Adulting, a term I never thought would encompass such complexities, has forced me to confront the stark realities of financial instability.

    In those days, as I yearned to start earning and contribute to my family’s well-being, some elders dismissed my aspirations with laughter, insisting that life is not as straightforward as I believed. Initially, I felt annoyance and anger, vowing to prove them wrong. However, reality unfolded differently, and I learned the hard way that the wisdom of elders, derived from life experiences, is invaluable. Perhaps I should have heeded their warnings and savored my teenagehood more.

    Despite the challenges, my determination to move forward and face the world head-on persisted. As the eldest child, unexpectedly shouldering responsibilities akin to a second mother, I found myself in a role I had not anticipated. While I acknowledge that complaining is futile, understanding that I am entrusted with this role for a higher purpose keeps me focused.

    Observing friends who effortlessly achieve success and prosper in life leaves me both amazed and bewildered. I marvel at those who seemingly do nothing and yet lead comfortable lives with the support of their parents or siblings. It remains a mystery to me how they navigate life with such ease while I toil daily, not only to overcome hurdles but also to manage the debt incurred in pursuit of my education.

    This surreal life, uncharted and unanticipated, has failed to come with a warning. Nevertheless, the challenges I face and the experiences I endure are shaping me into a better human being. Each trial, each hardship, is a precious gem contributing to my unique journey and making me distinctly different.