This was an outcome of my distraction, while I was working on my project work. I had this random thought going through my mind, as I was thinking about making the work meaningful and sustainable. It was what I wasn’t intended to draw, I will not be able to draw this if I were to really draw haha. But yeah I thought this is something I need to cherish cause It’s beautiful for me.
Have you ever felt the paradox of being free to fly on your own while being bound within certain constraints? It may sound absurd, but I’ve been there. Despite being aware that I could be anything I wanted and had the right to make my own decisions, I often felt confined to a small, protected zone. It was akin to being a parrot in a cage (if you catch my drift)– a situation where every step and action seemed to be scrutinized from an observer’s perspective rather than that of a fellow individual.
In this stifling environment, unable to grow or move forward, overwhelmed by the circumstances around me. I won’t lie; I fell into depression, experiencing the worst nightmare of my life. That’s when I realized I needed to break free.
It takes a lot of courage to come to terms with the fact that I matter before anyone else, especially considering the responsibility I had in supporting my family with the little resources I had. Nevertheless, I decided to bite the bullet and free myself, albeit with skepticism. The journey out of that situation was challenging, requiring me to shield myself from various obstacles.
It has taken almost a year for me to recover from the ordeal, and I am still on the path of self-discovery. It has been a recent rollercoaster ride with many demands on my service, thanks to being the eldest child in a middle-class family. Anyway, I am happy, though not entirely satisfied. Wish me luck in achieving a contented life. Peace!
OCTOBER is a month of cosmos, rhododendrons, fall, clear sky with the best moon and stars. Where the Cherry blossoms, painting the world into a mystical fantasy. The season of Halloween and the anticipation for Christmas is at its highest peak. The spirit to march forward with zeal and enthusiasm as the year is coming to an end in two months’ time. There’s no greater feeling than waiting for the winter break when I’d get to meet my family, loved ones, and friends after a year of toil. Oh, what can be better than this…
If only I could live anywhere in the world, I would like to live in the countryside amidst beautiful landscapes. I would like to farm and have a WFH job, spending my days with family. I would prefer to be back in my hometown but somewhere further than the community living areas. There, I would enjoy a peaceful, serene life and run some cabins for tourists, as my hometown is a touristy place. I would love to wake up, kissing the sun’s rays, and sleep with the stars and moon shining brightly overhead, while insects and birds chirp a lullaby in the background. There would be days where I would invite my relatives and friends over to celebrate life together, hosting them with scrumptious meals from our own farm. Oh! I wish I were living that life now.
It can be said that I have collected a lot of things or materials from different places as I travel around. Among all these, the coolest thing I have kept with me since 2017 is a pen. It’s a blue gel pen with a deep blue color, and it is labeled as ‘made in Japan.’ It was given to me by one of my American friends during our leadership training. I thought it was a priceless gift that someone could ever give (I was actually fascinated by the fact that an American friend gifted me something, lol). I am pretty sure she did not realize that the pen she had given to me was special to me. That’s what I normally feel when I give some of my pens randomly to people when they are in need. To make a long story short, I use this pen to record important events in life now.
